Very new to this....

[Angry and frightened]

I can relate to that. After having the 5.30m, smashing the door in, routine from the police, every time I saw a police car, no matter how far from home I was, Was convinced they had come to arrest my husband. And Have never had mental health issues - well as far as !
I know

[lawlessone2009]

Sorry you're feeling so edgey, I can understand it though... I'm pretty paranoid about internet spies! having had a nervous breakdown means that you're possibly more vulnerable than others but also means you are more likely to be able to avoid it. If you're seeing yuor GP or mental health professional tell them whats happening to you and about your fears. It may be that your medication needs to be modified. I find it's very easy to get bogged down with fear, and when I take note of it I realise that no-one is putting that fear onto me, I'm doing it to myself . Does that make sense? It's then possible for me not to do it to myself. Try it.

WOW. True.

Well put as well!

Not a lot can be added to that apart from things don't change you just learn to deal with them better. I still get worried all the time but I can brush it off a little easier. When you're innocent and faced with the potential consequences of being called guilty everything in life changes.

[whatsgoingon?]

Sorry you're feeling so edgey, I can understand it though... I'm pretty paranoid about internet spies! having had a nervous breakdown means that you're possibly more vulnerable than others but also means you are more likely to be able to avoid it. If you're seeing yuor GP or mental health professional tell them whats happening to you and about your fears. It may be that your medication needs to be modified. I find it's very easy to get bogged down with fear, and when I take note of it I realise that no-one is putting that fear onto me, I'm doing it to myself . Does that make sense? It's then possible for me not to do it to myself. Try it.

[myhome]

Scared of everything

The other county police force must have had the tapes for a week to 10 days. I'm now scared of everything - the phone ringing, the post arriving.... a van passed my home yesterday - it had red and yellow chevrons on its rear doors. I immediately thought it had come for me. It passsed by then drove away - it wasn't even a police vehicle... I cry lots and having had a nervous breakdown 5 years ago I recognise the signs and so don't want it to happen again...

[Boys don't cry]

Myhome.

A late welcome from me but I can confirm the posts of the other members.
Most of us have experienced what you are living or a case similar to it.

You must keep faith and be strong.
Talking about your situation to your family,friends and samaritans will be a relief for you.
If you are not happy with one of the last you can change the receiver.

You will get positive and negative thoughts but in the end you must aim for your innocence.
Try to keep busy,go out,meet your friends and family...
and take care of yourself.

[myhome]

And you've always got us!

Yes thank you - and the support from everyone on here has been soooo helpful

[So angry and hurt]

So hurt and angry

And you've always got us!

[myhome]

Thanks for your advice largactyl1, lawlessone and faith. My CPN is now off on maternity leave; they will allocate me another urgently but that will take over 2 weeks... I'm seeing my GP again on Thursday and I'm so fortunate that he is very supportive and helpful....

[myhome]

Rights Fighter;34828]What makes you think you wll have to sell your own home to pay for a defence? You might be eligible for public funding

.

Thank you for your reply. I'm assuming that to defend my case is going to cost me a small fortune as if it went to trial it would be 300 miles away from my home and I'm assuming also that I would have to pay my solicitor's expenses as well as costs.
Thanks you for the link to the calculator; I will use that and find out.

[largactyl1]

HI myhome,

My apologies for joining this thread quite late. I too have severe mental health problems (severe bipolar) and it is this issue about which I know most (or infact anything at all!)

Do NOT under any circumstances come off prescribed medication suddenly and without a great deal of support from your GP. Coming off Fluoxetine suddenly will more than likely bring back your symptoms and then some. You will feel fine for about 2 weeks then it will be back. Try to space out diazepam and maybe take half of one ( 2mg, 5 mg or 10 mg?) unless you have an over whelming need to self-harm.

Regarding self-harm. It is of course a massive release but try to take the diazepam before the urge reaches it's peak. As you have a cpn you must have been in the MH system for a while so should be able to recognise the symptoms.

See your CPN as a matter of urgency. Counselling can be done with her/him if they are a qualified worker and not just a support worker. If they are a support worker ask them to bring up your needs at their next team meeting (or before as a matter of urgency).

When suicidal, phone the Samaritans. It really does help. When suicidal feelings rush in, use the diazepam. It is there to be used - just not abused.

Kind regards
Jen

[lawlessone2009]

Please visit your GP for support.

Or come on here and rant and rave!

GPs aren't always the most useful people...

If you have a mental health helper then good.

Thank god your still with us!!! Don't go doing anything stupid, your present situation will pass with time. It does lighten up.

[Faith]

myhome, you are not alone in experiencing these dark days, I think every one of us knows exactly where you're coming from.
We can all attest to the fact that it isn't black all the time...it's like a rollercoaster. Some days are unbearable and others, you are focused and full of purpose.

Things can, and do, work out the right way, I promise you.
Please visit your GP for support.

[myhome]

Thanks soooo much everyone....

[billykickass]

That is really great advice and i cant really add anymore, except i understand your emotions as i have been through them as well! You have to stay strong, the situation sucks but your life is NOT over so have some fun and take stock of the good times, things will get better i promise you.

[So angry and hurt]

So hurt and angry

Message to myhome ;
BREATHE ................... you are in a safe place on this site, there are many people around you who know something about how you are feeling and we all feel for you! I think as with anything that is a shock and dreadful, your mind will keep taking you to a dark fearful place, but in time your Coping mechanism will kick in and hopefully then you can start to work on how to help yourself ,psychically , emotionally and practically. This will all take time which is what you have plenty of ,so, make the most of it ,use the time to find help and maybe do some voluntary work so you have others around you, spend time with people you love and trust and maybe write a diary ,because you will get stronger and as you do you will be able to help others in some way.
You know that you are innocent and who knows the reasons why people do the things they do but we all hold onto the hope that justice will be done ( even if it does take forever! )
Take care for now