Boyfriend doesn't trust me meeting up with people because I spent to long dealing with my rape

[RFLH]

being diabetic you know you shouldn't over-drink - that's where long term problems start.

Keep talking here and do try to phone properly trained counsellors, you've done remarkably well in a short time, the more you can talk about it, the easier it will be - but you do need more help than we can give.

http://www.rapecrisis.org.uk/

[Hannah]

I know I know, i'm controlling it though.

And thanks for your help, I will do.

[RFLH]

bet you don't admit to drinking a lot when you go for your check-ups?!

Drink has a lot to answer for - just read some of the chaps' threads.

[Hannah]

I do, but I can never stick to what they want me to do.

And whats chaps' threads?

[RFLH]

ah but you know it makes sense to do what the doc's say - it stops all sorts of problems in later life - none of which are plesant - it may seem a long time off, but take it from me you're knocking on the pearly gate a lot quicker than you think!

There are several chaps who have threads from having got drunk, had a one night stand and the girl has regretted it or lied and has cried rape. Read a few. (I do mean that drink has a lot to answer for - commonsense and inhibitions go out the window and you leave yourself open to things you would never think about if you were sober).