a saturday like any other

[lilahfairy]

I wasn?t aware that you?d drunk that much
I?d said ?yes? but not to this
Sly one, you were faster than me
An awkward position to be in
This wasn?t how it was meant to happen
You loved me, didn?t you?
I don?t know when I started to cry
But you didn?t stop
You were insidious, with your soft tones
Looking over me, not at me
Your absence red in your bulging eyes
It wasn?t you anymore, I knew that much
A hand on my throat
Over my mouth
I held out for a while
Quiet enough for you?
But it proved to be too much
My corrupt little shriek
No more. Here I drew the line.
You held me on it for hours.
Perching on the edge
I could never get off
Desperate apologies
For what you couldn?t remember
The irony was lost on you
This was the inception
A week or so later
This cheap little object would get her feelings back
I had my existence to prove
And a razor blade helped
Show me that I?m flesh and blood
Because I?m doubtful
Worthless
It was stamped on my brain
In the right light, you can still see it

[Phil]

If that's written as a voice of experiance, I hope your life has got better for you now. A very good and powerful text. Thanks for sharing it with us.