Hope

[isi]

I hope one day
that I can say
It was not my fault what that man did.
I hope I see justice
as I place my bid
To watch him cry for his life
like I once did.
I hope for that man
to accept what he did.
To look him in the eye
when he gets his verdict.

I hope one day
that I can say
I deserve to be loved in that special kinda way.
I hope that I can trust again
express myself
feel enlightened once more.
I hope for respect, honesty and peace
for a soulmate
in whom I can unleash
all the love that I have locked within.

I hope one day
that I can say
I love being me and I am comfortable in my skin.
I hope I can look in the mirror
and smile at me.
As now all I see is imperfection and doubt.
I hope that I can save myself
from sinking further
into this depression.

I hope one day
that I can say
I really dont feel like dying today.
I hope I can look forward and never look back
into the dreary and dismal past.
I hope one day I can laugh
at silly things that only joy can bring.
That care free laughter
that makes your belly hurt
and your rib cage tight.
I just keep on going with all my might.

[friday]

keep fighting and it will happen one day, hopefully sooner than you think.
x

[Saffron]

Beautiful and sad but written with hope. Thanks for sharing that Isi. It will happen one day, you are strong and courageous and you will get there!

[Rights Fighter]

If you do get a conviction you do know that you could use this as part of your victim Impact Statement, Isi?

VIS's can help the judge when he considers sentence.

I do hope that the person concerned admits guilt otherwise you will need to garner support for trial.

[isi]

Thank you for your replies x. Yes I do have hope that things will get better. I am finding that writing poems is one way I can express myself as I find it hard verbally.

I am not sure if it will go as far as getting to court. I am waiting to hear what they are going to do as to weather an investigation will even take place.

I have given video evidence and I know that it has now been transcribed and now has to be sent to the relevent police force where I was living at the time. It will then be up to them what they will do with my statement. I am not sure if the police where I am have started off the investigation and have found anything of interest. I suppose its something that I need to ask but I feel like I am being nosey asking what they have done so far even though its all about me.

I never thought of using my poem? its something to think about though. Thanks x

[Rights Fighter]

Hi Isi

I know from the FA cases I deal with that in many cases only the word of the complainant is evidence enough.

If you had people around you when the assaults were ongoing who you "told" or who knew about it, it might be an idea to get them on board as what is known as "recent complaint" witnesses.

[isi]

Wow, I would prefer if they only took it to court with some kind of evidence. It was a long time ago but there may be a possibility that there are some hospital reports still around. I told a nurse at hospital once when I turned up at a n e and was admitted for a few days. I also told the health advisor after I had my first child. I also told the psychologist at uni who diagnosed me with PTSD. I alsogot picked up by the police on a few occasions to be taken somewhere safe but not sure if there will be any record of that. I think I should tell the people dealing with it about these people as I never mentioned it to them when I gave my statement. Thanks RF

[Rights Fighter]

Yep.

Just because I support the falsely accused does not mean that I can't support those who have a genuine grievance.

You go girl!

[isi]

Thanks RF I appreciate it. x