I hope you have a better day today.
Please try to stay away from the 'what-if's' if you can. I know you need to be prepared for the worst, but not yet. That comes later. At the moment, try to focus on the fact that you ARE innocent of this accusation, that the 'evidence', such as it is, IS flimsy, and you CAN with good, experienced representation, prove your case.
If you can focus on gathering evidence for your defence, maintaining a strong mental and emotional health and keep yourself busy so you don't dwell on the negative possibilities, hopefully your bad days will not be so frequent.
You're innocent. That's the main and most important fact. All the horrors are the less likely outcome. Don't ever forget that.
For men with integrity, this is the most heinous and appalling accusation that could be levied against them. Society seems to forget that most men are good men who respect other people, including women, even though there are gender differences.
I think and hope that there are many rebelling now against the 'all men are rapists' chant. They are not. You are not.
Never lose sight of that.
'Mongolian Warriors had the courage of lions, the patience of hounds, the prudence of cranes, the long-sightedness of ravens, the wildness of wolves, the passion of fightingcocks, the keenness of cats, the fury of wild boars and the cunning of foxes.' BE A MONGOLIAN WARRIOR WHEN DEFENDING YOUR INNOCENCE!